My name is Medini Nadarajah and I was born into the Matrix on 17 December 1970.  I came to Planet Earth for a purpose ….

 

My mother always reminded me of how much she suffered carrying me and giving birth and keeps mentioning how she always, since she was 14 years of age, fell in love with the name Medini after hearing in once and wanted to give her daughter that very name.  She mentioned that she never regretted having me even though she never suffered the same way with my brother and I was grateful for all of that.  This pain is understandable for a mother when they are carrying an extremely powerful baby.  However my parents did not know at the time about my power.

 

I would like to recollect various memories of my journey from where I am today, December 2025.  My early years in Sri Lanka was spent in hiding as my father, a Colombo Tamil, was being hunted.  It was a terrifying time but we survived without being caught.  Had my father been caught, he would have been killed and I would have never known what kind of a person he really was.

 

As a child and teenager I never really felt loved by my relatives, although it may have looked like I was.  Doing things to help my mother was not enough of a reason for how I was taken care of.  I never felt anything deep inside and if anything I felt used, in other words my energy was used for their benefit whether they knew it or not.  Without going into detail, I suffered from different forms of abuse (you name it, I experienced it - sexual, mental, emotional and physical), which I considered to be normal growing up.  These may have contributed to my depression in my 30s but whilst I was growing up it did not seem to affect me mentally and emotionally, surprisingly.

 

As a toddler my brother even stabbed me on my forehead, missing my eye, leaving a permanently visible mark where hair does not grow.  We only have a one year 4 months age gap.  Of course he was only a child and the knife was within his reach and he did not know what he was doing.  After the incident my mother had 2 carers; one for me and one for my brother.  The fact of the matter is I was attacked spiritually using him and our carer as vessels.  I never got along with my brother anyway and I disowned him a few years ago and it could not have happened at a better time.

 

I lived in Nigeria from the age of 7 to 14, since my father was a Chartered Civil Engineer, project managing the building of dams.  Life was always fun; partying every weekend and socializing with many expatriates.

 

I remember when I was going to school in Nigeria, my so called friends would ask to see photographs of me (I found this to be really odd at the time) so I would show them and then find that some of them have gone missing.  This is just one instance and I had other strange instances where I was spiritually attacked and there were peers wanting to copy me.  My enemies knew who I was, and if I knew whilst in Nigeria what I know now, I would not be alive here today – I was too young and I had to do what my parents asked of me. 

 

My journey to where I am now was carefully designed by me before I was born, in order to face what I had to experience.  I had to become what I was meant to become at precisely the correct moment to do what I came here to do.  Whilst in Nigeria I had to be completely blind spiritually and I was.

 

I came to the UK at 14 years of age to carry on with my studies and settle down.  From where I am standing, this is when my journey to who I was to become truly started.  Nigeria was not really the environment for me to begin my journey, for the reasons mentioned above, but UK was.  Around this time, in the UK, I was not really aware of how my energy was affecting my environment and why certain people came into my life.  I never really had many friends, which was ok at the time as I was never desperate to have a large circle.  I kept myself to myself.  All I can say looking back was that everyone around me, including my brother, seemed to be doing very well in their life including their studies yet I found I had to work extremely hard to see small significant differences in my studies.  Suffering from severe migraines meant I could literally only study for 20 minutes at a stretch with a break of upto an hour after every 20 minutes, and strong medications helped.  I was constantly compared to my brother, who was younger than me, and even though I never really got along with him I had to do certain things with him – going to parties and playing sports as I did not have many friends.

 

My father struggled when he came to the UK and my mother worked a normal 9 to 5 job that she was content with.  This seemed normal at the time but now my awareness is telling me a totally different story.  My father was spiritually attacked and blocked from getting a job although he was qualified for the roles.  “Lack of UK experience” became a regular occurrence and he finally gave up and became an alcoholic with a demoralising job for his level of skill. 

 

In my late teens and into my 20s, since I felt I was not very intelligent or had a bright future, I always wanted to find out about how my life would turn out; palm readers would either say I will be an accountant or just say I will have a successful life.  Having my horoscope read and speaking to people who could tell the future such as psychics could not give me any solid answers.  I never got a full picture but one statement in particular, stayed with me for the rest of my life – “every time I focus on Medini I see power”.  This same psychic even mentioned that she tried to protect me from dark energies by clearing me and putting me in an energy box to keep me safe but somehow I dismantled it completely and she was very specific that I did it.  I did not realise I was capable of anything like that.  I managed to keep my spirits up by staying fit; playing sports, jogging and dancing.

 

At university I still struggled to excel the way my parents would have wanted but I did my best by spending all my time with books.  Something inside of me did not allow me to be dragged down or become depressed.  Partying, dancing into the early hours was all I had to feel joy.

 

I met my ex-partner as soon as I graduated and started working.  I was 22 years old and life was not easy.  My father did not approve of the relationship as he always mentioned to my mother that I could do better, but my mother never wanted to get into arguments and so got along with my ex-partner.  This caused friction between him and my father.  Reflecting back, I did not really feel loved by him at all – I always saw the signs so why did I marry him!  He never enjoyed anything I enjoyed.  He did not play sports or want to go dancing with me.  He never held my hand whilst walking down the street in more than 20 years after I met him until divorce.  He never wanted to have our wedding photo framed and on display in our house.  The only conclusion I can come up with is that my destiny was targeted – either to destroy it or to have it taken away from me.  It failed on both counts and any further attempts will be unsuccessful.

 

I remember my mother mention to me after she met my ex-partner that before I met him she had gone to Sri Lanka on holiday and met his mother.  Whilst my mother was in Sri Lanka she had heard from her relatives about a very good hairdresser who used to live in the UK and after many years she had decided to go back home to retire and naturally my mother wanted to get her hair cut by her.  I don’t know what kind of energetic transfer took place from my ex’s mother to my mother when she went to get her hair cut but she went to her house where she worked for herself.  All I know now is that my mother was affected by the energy transfer and it was not good – spiritual warfare against me.  On top of this, my ex-partner’s mother’s side of the family has a long list of ancestors who were ministers and his mother was heavily religious being a church of England Christian, constantly reading the bible except when she had to carry out daily tasks.  My mother did not have a clue as to what was happening, being extremely naïve but his mother had some kind of a spiritual grip on my mother.  To this day my mother is clueless as to what energy and spirituality is about.  She does not understand anything about what I do and she has not even made an effort to understand.  All my mother does when I meet her is mention how she misses her teenage life and wish she could go back to that life again – and strangely enough she mentions the age of 14.  It all makes sense to me now.

 

The 2 mothers did not physically attempt to get my ex-partner and I married off physically – it was done at a spiritual level with my future being the target.  I met my ex at a party very briefly (just a hello and bye kind of conversation) and subsequently got introduced unexpectedly by a mutual friend at her home, whom I had not known for long.  I had so many signs to stay away from my ex but I was blind to the information in front of me – may be I had to go through this experience.  All I can say is that I entered this part of my journey with a knowing of what I was getting myself into but somehow extremely well prepared.

 

I was dragged into a life to learn about Humanity, and my ex-partner was dragged into a journey to destroy me with the support of my brother, his mother and others.  I only had one real friend as my ex-partner did not want to socialise with anyone I connected with, instead I socialised with his friends.  We visited his friends regularly, and equally invited them to our house.  The life I lived, the experiences I had, the love I desperately craved but never received all made sense.  Whilst all this was happening I did whatever I could to feel joy on the inside – alcohol, partying, socialising without getting emotionally involved, and dancing.  I tried to climb the ladder to become a successful, qualified accountant and to secure a position on the Board of a multinational company but the stress was overpowering.  My first main job lasted 2 years, and after that I was only able to hold onto any one job for about a year and then it was time to move onto a higher paying job with more responsibility.  As you can imagine my CV did not look impressive, having held so many positions but the titles I held and the salaries I got paid was very satisfying.

 

That life swiftly came to an end after I gave birth to my daughter at the age of 31 and I was diagnosed with hypothyroidism and depression and being told that I had to take my medications for life.  I gradually lost touch with my career as an accountant.  The state of my mind would not have allowed me to handle a very challenging job.

 

Without any regret I moved forward.  With chaos in my mind, not knowing where I was heading, but coping with my diagnoses and trying to be the best mother I could for my daughter I persevered.  When my daughter was around one and half years old my depression gripped me to the extent that I attempted to take my life – I felt that I was not a good enough mother to my child and I believed she was better off without me.  I will do either a podcast or a video of what happened around this time as I believe it could help someone out there.

 

However, it was not my time to go and in the ambulance when I lost my life briefly, I was pushed back into my body with a force and the words “go back, you have work to do”.

 

Desperate to be “normal” and to be out of depression I tried everything out there – one to one and group therapies, different healing modalities, yoga and meditations.  I even tried to shut the depression out by getting into property renovation projects, which was short lived.  I even went on a course that taught me all the ins and outs of running a restaurant – an urge for some reason.  Nothing worked so I decided to work on myself by creating my own solutions.  Allowing others to guide me was not sufficient so I decided to do various courses to understand more about the principles behind the teachings.  I did meditation courses, courses in different healing modalities including reiki, reflexology, thai yoga massage, other massage courses, a yoga teacher training course, psychic work including out of body experiences, tarot cards and working with crystals.  In the middle of all this I also gave birth to my son in 2008.

 

Just before I turned 40 my father died and it left a negative mark on my psyche.  He was taken to hospital with multiple organ failure – he was in so much pain and had to be put on a drip as he could hardly eat.  When I went to visit him I used to sit at the foot of his bed.  Since I was into healing work around that time I tried to heal my father as I could clearly see what was wrong inside his body.  I could see what all his organs looked like and every time I tried I was blocked and got thrown out – I was in spiritual warfare.  I realised someone or something did not want me to save him.  I could also clearly see energies dressed in white at the head of his bed – at the time their energy told me they were angels who loved my father.  I had to let him go.  After a couple of days I was told that he was recovering, sitting upright in his bed, talking and smiling.  The next day he caught pneumonia out of the blue and died shortly after in the early hours.  I wish I was with him at the time but I was at home and got woken up through a phone call.

 

In the summer of 2012 I had various other spiritual experiences because of the psychic work I was experimenting with where I disappeared from my home and ended up sleeping on the street overnight.  I saw all the positive signs whilst I was dragged into this part of my journey – running for around 10 minutes without feeling out of breath even for a second, feathers and an unbelievable amount of beautiful rose petals in my path, and five trees in a row, perfectly manicured in front of where I sat to work on things energetically.  Every time I have gone past these trees since that day I have never seen those trees manicured to the extent I did on the day I sat in front of them.  Reflecting back all I know is that I was in spiritual warfare fighting to stay on the path of what I was born to do.  The statements “I am Power” and “I have work to do” kept me going by being an observer, without taking anything personally but understanding that I was in total control every second.

 

In August 2012, my meditations and psychic work took me to a point where I started hearing and seeing things in a detrimental way, and as a result ended up in a psychiatric ward, not out of choice.  What I saw and heard was very real to me but not to my family and friends.  I had to get out of there somehow and I did not feel I had the backing of my family.  I did not want to lose my children – they meant everything to me - I only had pictures of them to look at and kiss at night.  I got the strength to fight back and got out after 2 weeks and the experience inside gave me an insight that I was very grateful for.  I saw first hand how mentally disturbed people lived on a daily basis – it was sickening and at the same time I felt sad for them.  They were completely controlled, but just about managing with forced medications.  That is not how people should be living by any means.

 

Coming out of my medications seemed like a dream I was yearning for.  Soon after, my ex-partner and I decided to get a divorce.  Considering the amount of arguments we had been having, this seemed to be the best way forward for myself and my children.  Getting back into my career as an accountant now seemed impossible and I started looking for other ways to earn a living.  I tried various business ventures only to lose all my money – none of them worked out. 

 

Let me give you a couple of examples;  I tried to open a restaurant and I blindly trusted someone to use the money I put into the business for a return but it did not work out and I lost my money.  I wanted to bring a skincare range into the market and I found someone who could create the products with the ingredients I wanted and they introduced me to the manufacturer.  It should have taken only about 6 months to bring it into market, maximum one year.  After 4 years of what seemed like progress, I received a sample of the first batch.  I opened it up and discovered that the lip balm had pieces in it when it was meant to be smooth.  Within the 4 year period I also discovered that the manufacturer, that was a small business at the time I went to them suddenly expanded to the extent that they moved to new larger premises.  The person who was meant to be working with me to get the products onto the market also started arguments and demanding more money.  I felt that I was being attacked spiritually in order to have me completely destroyed, for good reason, because of the circumstances I came face to face with.  Ofcourse I knew what was happening along the way but I had to go with it without being emotionally attached to the situations as it was part of my journey.  I came to the conclusion that any form of progress in my life and my worth and value were being supressed.  I was in a spiritual warfare (which I had been in since I was born) and I took what was happening in my stride and came to the realisation that I was meant for bigger things. 

 

I also noticed that everyone around me, which included family, relatives and friends were doing well and as they were doing well I was going downhill.  Looking back I found this to be directly related to the spiritual warfare I was facing and the chill that ran down my spine only confirmed my views.  I decided not to be in touch with those relatives and friends for the sake of my own wellbeing. I also had visions of a correction on the way – my energy coming back to me. 

 

From 2012 onwards I decided to get healthy and fit so I started doing yoga and shortly after joined a gym.  Spending upto 3 to 4 hours each day for 5 to 6 days a week was absolutely amazing for my inner strength and even physically.  The self love I felt was so overpowering that I could not come up with any reason to give up on my life.  I always felt proud of what I had achieved thus far emotionally, mentally and physically.  I met a lot of like minded people at the gym and it felt like my second home.  Although I connected with these individuals at the gym I could not get myself to consider them as friends or even want to socialise outside of the gym for good reason – spiritual warfare.  I could not trust anyone.  You could say I did not have any friends, only acquaintances I socialised with at the surface level.

 

In 2017 I qualified as a driving instructor, which was great.  I had flexibility and I could choose when I wanted to work.  It was a brilliant job and I came across very challenging students.  This allowed my coaching and mentoring skills to develop significantly as I had to address their health issues as well.  I was able to pass over 95% of my students first time.  My students always mentioned that I am very calming.  This made me feel like I was doing something with my life that was related to my path.  Even though I still did not know what my destiny was I was enjoying every moment of what I was doing.

 

In September 2018, a routine blood test for hypothyroidism revealed an unexpected and demoralising result.  I was told that my T3 results were off the charts and there has been no one alive with the results that I had since the history of time.  I was asked to go to the Accident & Emergency section of the hospital straight away to be monitored and be prepared to stay overnight and longer if necessary.  Naturally, I refused on the basis of my self diagnosis – I was perfectly fine.  There is absolutely nothing wrong with me.  My doctor did not accept my word so I did go to the hospital but on my terms – I had no intention of staying at the hospital even for a day.  I also agreed to see specialists to work on my medications.  I never got the answers I sought so I asked to be discharged back to my doctor.  Shortly after I came off all my medications and decided to take control of my own health​

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The only conclusion I could come to at this stage was that I was someone extremely powerful.  The 2 statements –“I am Power” and “I have work to do” was beginning to make sense.

 

I realised I was meant for more, so towards the end of 2019 I decided to put myself to the test.  I withdrew from what I call the Matrix.  Other names I use include the superconscious mind, the void and god.  Soon after, in early 2020, covid hit us badly.  However, my health was not affected at all even though I did not take the vaccinations, did not wear masks and was not on any medications, but I was not able to work.  Going to the gym came to a standstill as well.  I had to do something – so after doing research on the internet I enrolled on a personal training and nutrition course.  It kept me busy for almost 2 years whilst working whenever I was able to.

 

In the back of my mind I had the nagging feeling that I caused covid by withdrawing from the Matrix, or was the close proximity a coincidence….  The blame obviously went elsewhere so I was able to put my mind at ease but the possibility that I had something to do with it, without realising, did not go away and that only made me feel even more powerful – the question that went through my mind was “am I the one that holds the energy that ensures Planet Earth and life on the planet is sustained with equilibrium being maintained.  So what about the rest of this universe.  I must be regulating its equilibrium as well.  Did I create this universe!”.  For some reason, I also began to feel that I have been controlling the weather in London.

 

I needed to get the attention of world leaders and others in significant positions and I found a way to do it on social media following the belief that “bad publicity is better than no publicity”.  Social Media did not feel real to me anyway – it felt fake so I joined in for bad publicity with many #s.  I was still in spiritual warfare, however, I got the results I wanted.

 

Whilst I was getting the attention from around the world, the results from my blood test for hypothyroidism made me a target and the government body that monitors driving instructors came after me and my job came under extreme scrutiny leaving me feeling that there was a high probability I could lose the job that was putting food on the table and a roof over my head.  I persevered relentlessly and proved my unwavering ability to do my job, very successfully, I must add, without being on any medications and supplements for my medical conditions.

 

I also had the students I was teaching threaten me and my family with black magic and witchcraft.  You can only imagine how I felt.  “I must be so powerful that people would come after me in this way” were the words ringing in my mind.  I used my expertise in spiritual warfare to fight back and, naturally I succeeded.

 

In 2021, I made up my mind to become a vegan.  I ate all the foods I was told I should not eat because of my medical condition – hypothyroidism, and it did not affect my mental or physical health at all.

 

I cannot recall a certain date when I decided to discard all religions and my belief in god.  It was directly related to the circumstances I faced all my life and the way my father died.  When I was young I used to watch my father pray to certain gods (being a hindu) every morning and every night after showering – he never missed.  He donated to buddhist temples regularly (my mother was a buddhist).  He took care of his family and my mother’s by giving money as both my parents came from poor backgrounds.  If there was a god out there it should have taken care of my father the way he was taking care of others. 

 

Through observation and reflection I came to the conclusion that I am the Ultimate Power and there is no other power above me.  I am all I have and I had to help myself.  I witnessed myself fighting crippling mental torture out of total unconditional love for myself, and winning every time without anyone’s help.

 

I know Energy inside out – Energy is my primary language and English is my second.  Had I not understood the spiritual warfare I would be subjected to even before I was born and be ready to face any eventuality, there is no way I would have been successful in getting to this point where I know, without a doubt the power I wield.  I was always ready to be born into the Matrix and dismantle it piece by piece.  Just like you put puzzle pieces together to create the picture that you wish to see, I was ready to do the opposite.

 

My decision to face the public was to happen in 2025 to physically do what I came here to do.  I came to make sure Humanity as a species continues to exist to eternity and to turn Planet Earth into The Heaven for Humanity.  Humanity is the highest form of existence and there is no one above Humanity on Planet Earth.